He Knows I Am Here

I was having one of those days... You know the ones... Where nothing seems to be going right. 

Where God seems far away. When you're trying to convince yourself that the future God has planned for you has to be better than the situation you're going through now. When you're waiting for God's will to happen because this day is not of God.

Yes. One of those days.

They happen often for me. Days when I convince myself that the current situation I'm in, and the struggles I'm experiencing working in the church, are temporary. That the future is bright and it's only a matter of time before God reveals it to me. 

It was on one of those days when the words of Saint Jose Isabel Flores Varela spoke to me. 

"God knows I am here. This is His will for me."

In the mess. In the doubt. In the questioning. In that day. God knows I am here. He knows what I am going through. He knows what I'm struggling with. He knows I am here.

He knows it, because He wills it. It may sometimes be hard to comprehend His will on those days. But the point is, it is still His will for me. He knows where He is taking me, and He knows that each day is necessary for me to get there. 

And so on those days, I will remind myself, through the mess, the doubt, and the sadness, that He knows I am here, so I am not alone. He would never leave me alone because He too experienced one of those days....